Week 4

14 stone 10 and 3/4

This week, I have lost 2 lbs.

This is Fantastic and the second week in which I've lost 2 lbs which is twice as much as I had planned to lose.

My evening motivation to not snack after dinner was very high this week, although it slipped a bit yesterday because I had bought some gorgeous cherries and raspberries and found those too much to resist.  Having said that though, it's a world away from the 400g bar of Cadbury's I'd regularly put away, or the entire packet of chocolate hobnobs.

I am doubly surprised at my weight loss this week, because I had a bit of a mad weekend overall for eating.  I had fish and chips on Saturday evening, and at TOO MUCH.  I should have followed my daughter's example, and actually taken half the chips off of my plate.  I felt ill afterwards.

I kind of over-ate at a little at dinner time on Sunday too, but not to the same extent.  So it's back to normal sized portions.

Even though I haven't dieted for 10 years, the difference this time to previous times I have dieted, is that if I go a little off the rails, I don't go crazy and think "oh well, might as well eat like crazy and start again tomorrow."  Then feel a massive pang of guilt.

This time around, I just say to myself, "ok, I've eaten a bit too much, I'll be more careful tomorrow.  One day won't ruin everything."  

It's a much better mindset, and one that doesn't sabotage myself.

As far as exercise goes, I've not done as much deliberate exercise because we've been getting the kitchen emptied ready for the workmen who are due to arrive today to install a new kitchen.

I did swim once and walk down to the shops twice, but I moved around more at home.

Albany Swimming pool opens up again today though, after two weeks of being closed for refurbishment, so that should make it easier to go swimming.

My goal for this week, seeing as I am regularly losing 2 lbs, is to lose another 2 lbs, taking me very very close to my first goal of 14 stone 8 pounds.

This is a psychological first goal for me. This is kind of the slimmer end of my current size, if that makes sense.  This is the weight at which my clothes fit easily and I feel good in them.  

To remind myself, I started losing weight because my clothes had become so tight, that on the way to Penrallt, I had to take my bra off because it was digging into me, and my previously loose trousers were so tight around my middle that they were uncomfortable.

Also, whilst at Penrallt, I had a massage from a back specialist, and was quite concerned that when I lay on my back, I was so fat that he couldn't really reach my neck because the fat rode up so high.

Since I've started this diet, my uncle has had two heart attacks, and this reminds me of my family history that I need to protect myself from.  My dad has angina and has had a bad stroke, my mum has had a heart attack, my uncle has had two.  In addition, all the women on my mum's side have diabetes and severe back problems.  So, by losing weight and exercising, I will protect myself from these health risks.